whoa....does this stuff relly work still?!?! haha its almost about that time..summer summer summer time...hehehe whell i think i wont have that much time to go do this stuff anymore...=/...i got werks and school so im gonna be a busy beaver or whatever..but deng im taking this straight out of the wood works.......i guess i can add a few more ppl on this hehe...hahaha...aiite whatever

what i have notice - sometimes someone makes u feel bad for some reaoson. maybe not on purpose but just telling the truth or something. just telling u whats on their mind and hoping that u will understand. but when someone makes someone feel bad. the reaction is to make the other feel bad too. its like a emotional reflex. for example. if two people were breaking up. and she says "oh its not working out."we need to break it off cause i dont want to lead u on any longer". (so this makes the girl feel bad cause the girl is breaking it up with him}. the guy then says .."i thought u would be different, i thought u wouldnt be like my other gf" {the guy then tries to make the girl feel bad} people dont realize they try to make the other person feel bad cause they made them feel bad. i been noticing that a lot. even in regular conversations. thats how arguements are. they try to make the other person feel more bad. i do admit. i have done this before. i never really knew i was doing it. until ive seen it happen to other people. i trully am sorry for the people i made feel bad just cause they made me feel bad. but i relize it now. and now i know it is wrong.

dang no one wrote in here for a hecka long time. well guess wut. i have a girlfriend since just today. whoo hoo for me!. that made my day. but. i feel pissed right now or just down or wutever. i guess cause my brother beat me in hockey 3 TIMES and the last one was hecka bad . with the score being 7 to 1. that A hole. i feel like screaming. i dont like losing. oh well. I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND. who hoo! yeah. thats pretty much it. i doubt anyone will read this until hecka long. but yeah. aight paaaayce

aye aye i first heard b0o0o0o from kuya derrick, durl, and them...so Chad up you face!!!! haha jk..well i juss wanted to pointed that out...well you know what phrase im annoyed of..but cant help doing....lol...is when durl says Chad up your face!!!*waves fist*...it tends to get annoying..but i cant help doing it since he does it alot...oh

well...i havent relly blogged on this since hecka deep...well a lot has happened but uhh its too much to put in one entry..haha..well im an unofficial volunteer ta at jesse bethel...official wen i got my shot..haha im such a baby i dont wanna get a shot it be hurting like a mother humper...well i chose to do this because i wanna become a teacher..but mayn you gotta have a lot of patience cause i jus realized that classes at bethel are ghetto..i aint no lying and not trying to be mean but it is ghettostylin...

well i dont relly have anything to say but gut the DASHBOARD UNPLUGGGED CD/DVD NOW!!! YOU HEARD ME GO PICK THAT UP...YENNO CAWPPPP THAT!!! HAHA well juss remember pineapples my frends...pineapple...hahaha

Know what's pretty funny? I started saying BOO in September, and I said that people would catch on. SOMEONE told me that "that's just not going to happen." Haha, why are a lot of people saying it now? HMMmMmmMm?????? TELL ME THAT, HUH?! Hah, whatever man, I didn't know I was THAT influential...=) Oh well! I think it's cool. I'm finally important...NIIICCCEEEE.

p.s. You can only say BOO if it's something bad....i.e.
"retshan is hecka bothering me... mr. bombay.. bOoOOoOooOOoO!!! "
"nothing else to say but boo."

Since forever, i havent cried myself asleep for a very long time...iono the past two days ive been contemplating bout life in general and all its sucky tendencies...heh i wont go into to detail why im so down in the dumps but i think im juss naive and its nothing to your concern....juss as Dee-Lyn would say...Why would you care bout my problems...i dont even exist..........oh well like all my friends are saying move on with your life alredy and forget bout it...oh well like the ataris(which bTw have a concert on friday which im going too!!!) say..."iono wy i care so much...when i shouldnt be caring at all???

well i hope i get fazed out and forget about the whole thing...one bright spot this week is the ataris concert on friday and mebbe volunteering on saturday at the local christian helpcenter!!! WOOT WOOT

Hi guys... I haven't blogged this shit in hella long... blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... im in mr. somethings class! hahahahha anyways, retshan is hecka bothering me... mr. bombay.. bOoOOoOooOOoO!!! okay im tired of school, okay, BYE!!!

dude, what the hell is wrong with my mother? SHE'S REALLY PISSING ME OFF. Ergh, okay. Well, my mom bought me my cell phone, after about 2 weeks of haggling...and I had to pay $200 for it. The promotion was to buy one and get one free, so she gave one to my sister FOR FREE. FREE! What the hell?! I had to pay for my own shit, and she comes along and gets one too?!?!?! OKAY, well, after that, I told my sister that it was unfair that I had to pay and she didn't, so she gave me $60, which was okay, I guess. Now my mom finds out, and WTF...SHE YELLS AT ME!!! I don't get that, man. Okay, then the other day we went to Michaels to buy some Christmas shit...I didn't WANNA go, but I went cause I needed practice driving. Tell me why she got mad at me when I needed help learning how to park! DAMNIT, IF I DIDN'T NEED HELP, I'D BE A LICENSED DRIVER BY NOW. Ergh, so she ends up saying "I'm hungry," and being the nice daughter that I am, I buy her some fucking Rubios. BIG MISTAKE. I end up having to buy shit for two of my sister as well. ERGH. So later, we go to some tree lots because we were going to get a tree...I didn't like any of them, and I told her they weren't full enough. She's getting frickin frustrated at me....what the hell! Hell day isn't even over yet, and when my mom was decorating the lights in the window, she asked for my help. I went to help, and I tripped on some of the shit she had on the ground. I accidently kicked her "expensive Japanese doll" or some shit like that, and instead of hearing an "Are you okay?" I heard a "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! YOU COULD HAVE BROKEN THAT!" WHAT. The. Hell? I started bitching to my dad, and he just said, "she took care of you, now it's your time to take care of her." Don't give me that B.S.

So today, she took me with her to Travis to go to the comissary. It ended up with her going to the BX while I went to the comissary and paid for the fucking groceries BY MYSELF...WITH MY MONEY...so I tell my mom that I spent $86 on the food, and instead of a "thank you," I got a "WHY DID YOU SPEND SO MUCH?!" And she was saying this while pushing a cart full of USELESS CHRISTMAS SHIT THAT WAS WORTH (coicidentally) $86...as if THAT wasn't bad enough, when I went to the electronics section to get my camera, THE PIECE OF SHIT WAS OUT OF STOCK! I told my mom, 'cause she promised she would get it for me as a Christmas gift, and asked if we could go to the mall to get it, and she said OK. Then she tells me to call my sister so we can meet at the mall..."Meet you guys there? I don't wanna meet you there!" WELL FUCK YOU TOO! Grr. So I tell my mom she said that, and she says "Well then we won't go to the mall!" WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!??!! ARGH my mom is REALLY getting on my last nerve...WHO SEEMS TO BE PLAYING FAVORITES?!?!?!?!

so it's broken down like this...my mom spends $360 on my phone...the phone is actually worth $300...I pay $200...and my sister gets the same one FOR FREE...I want to deposit $153 into my mom's account and take it out of the ATM....she says I can only get $80....WTF?! I now have $180....while I'm sleeping, she takes $20 and leaves a note saying "I borrowed $20"...borrowd my ASS...I have $160...I buy my sisters and mother food...I now have $140...I buy groceries...spend about $90...I now have $50...I have to buy my sister and mother food, AGAIN! that cost $20...I now have $30...$30!!!! And I have NOTHING TO SHOW FOR THAT! ANd to add onto that, the camera that my mother was supposed to buy for me is not going to happen! I HAE $30 and NO CAMERA....AND NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT!!!! If I was my sister, I'd have $420...LIFE IS FUCKING UNFAIR!

Whoa, dude. I haven't used this mother in a long while.

Hmm...I'm bored so I decided to blog. But what about? Haha oh yeah, I finally got an A- on a damn vocab paragraph. BUT I GOT MARKED DOWN BECAUSE I WROTE IN ALL CAPS. Bastard. Haha. I used baseball as my subject. That's the only thing I know a lot about...well, that and music. BLAH. Hmmm. Oh yeah...Something Corporate is coming to The Fillmore in January and The Alkaline Trio is coming on Feb. 2. Yeah...expect this to be edited in the next couple of hours.

Wow, I haven't blogged on this for ... awhile.

Well, nothing new is happening. Um, boredom has perpetually placed itself upon my shoulders, and managed to just stay there and continue to emit waves of extreme boredom all around me. Like now. I'm so bored. I have shitloads of homework to do for French 4, Pre-Calculus, History, and AP Chem, but am I doing it? How about . . . no!!!

So glad I got out of Woolard's, otherwise I would have been stressing over the Book Response Number 2 that is due tomorrow, lmao. And the Vocabulary Paragraph due on Friday. Hahaha. Thank God.

I'm in the War Veteran's class now, lol, just kidding, Miss Surber is cool. It's just that -- yeah, I do miss actually learning proper english, vocabulary, and grammar. Now, it's like, September 11 mourning all over again.

Eesh. But whatever, it's cool. I really don't mind getting the A++++ in that class, haha. Anyway, uh, nothing else to say but boo. Okay, I'm done.

BRRRR!!! its fuckin cold in tha morning right now...im shivering while im typing this....BRRRRR!!!! well my interview wid gap went okay and i got a second interview but ill think ill blog when its a whole lot warmer...hahahha

hehe mayn im bored...IONO WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!!!HAHA newayz...i havent blogged for a while i guess ill write wat i did for my thanksgiving break...

Tuesday-sheesh if you wanna know juss read blorks i dont wanna reiterate(sP?)

Wednesday- uhm nothing relly went to go watch 8 mile wid my sister, that movie is pretty kewl..i suggest that ppl watch it, I RECOMMEND IT!! uhmm after that i went to choir pratice...thats bout it...

Thursday-THANKSGIVING!!! AKA TURKEY DAY!!! haha well i first went to mass and then i had thanksgiving at my house all my familia came over it was pretty kewl...after that we watched movies all night wid my cuzos...hehe i did not know Scream was so scary AND funny at the same time...hehehehe

Friday-Ellen's Thanksgiving DAY!!! WOO HOO MORE TURKEY....haha i wanna go to early in the morning and hit up the malls but i woke up at 1..haha so yeah no time...well ellen's thing was kewl i got to see most of my frends in hecka long time...so yeah it brought a tear in my eye...=*)...lol

Saturday-Three parties i went to...Jaymi's Debut, Andrea's Debut, and Keith's kick it party...i didnt relly go to Andrea's Debut...i didnt even know who that was...haha and apparently the MC didnt know either..he kept on calling her Audrey....STOOPS MY NIGS...haha, well Jaymi's Debut was kewl i saw some new faces especially the people who came from down south so it was nice to see some more faces....at keith's it was kewl too...i saw larry and havent seen him in hecka deep and he goes to the air force i think in Colorado??iono i fergot well basically keith's shit was a drinking party...i didnt drink THAT much...i aint down wid that stuff...plus i had to drive so im not gonna get "FAWKED UP"...

Sunday- the usual...i juss went to church but i wanna stay home after that but my mom sed to go to travis wid her and so i did...and mayn my mom shop for hecka deep....like frekkin 5 hours...i was tired as hyell and bored at the time...i kept on thinking to myself..."I WANNA GO HOME AND SLEEP!!!"...lol...well i saw my old school buddy Marc Camaya...and i havent seen since...uhmm...its too long to remember...lol well he goes to davis n i was glad that i saw him...

so basically my break was "all right" i got to see my buddies(no not you katrina..hahaha) but seriously it was nice to see everyone agen...i was happy...i hope its like this during christmas break...or else...i will be hecka bored....lol

oh yeah, i mite work for the Gay Athletic People so give all the good luck and all that stuff to meeh...k??

hey!! want to know something i learned in skool today. its pretty kewl. its soo freaking clever. my english teacher, mr macmoyler, told us why to assume is wrong. cause when u assume something. u make a "ASS" out of "U" and "ME". pardon my dirty mouth that i usually dont use. but i had to cause it wouldnt work if i didnt use my dirty mouth. that is soo clever dont cha think. and pretty hilarious i might add.

well since andrew and geraldane have discuss the futures mebbe i should give you update about my future...lol

well i think everyone knows that im currently a freshie@solano as camille would say...haha...well my major is computer science but that mite change cause im thinking of becoming a teacher now...you know like your high school/middle school/elementary teacher...nothing upper division LOWER DIVISION ONLY. Also ive set on going to either UC Davis or UC Berkeley....2.8 gpa wid 60 units???thats schmoe' EASY...but i mite not write my letters of intent yet to either one. If i am gonna go change my major i mite go look for college's that have good teaching crudentials..it mite still be UC Davis or UC Berkeley but we'll see..

"freak do you need me to put a fat 'NO!' sign on my forehead" - ahahhaah, Janelle...

"My anorexic laptop can kick your bulimic laptop's butt!"

"Ate, your a loser (LOSER STAMP)"

"eee....EEEEE...E-I-E-I-O!"
*Screech! What's the rest?*
"Old MacDonald had a farm!"

question. if u told someone something. is it right for them to tell someone else. like u open up to someone right. u tell them your business. soo once u tell someone your business. does that make it their business so they could tell someone else? yes?no? wut do u think.
this is nothing really. just something to think about and put your input of wut u think. soo yeah. anyone who cares to input their opinion. go right ahead.

oh yeah! u know that word i put. "sha bop". there is a certain way to say it. just thought u would like to know if like yeah. if u choose to say it.

dang man.. I've been sitting here for an hour... and drew is still sleeping... LMAO.. hahah.. I was hecka laughing cause I used a pen and tried to stick it in his nostril... lol... it was hecka funnie..lol.. and then he kinda moved... lol... see how bored you can be at work??? ahahah.. the best part about it is... that I get payed for it... basically in a nut shell!

lol.. yeah thats right drew.. still blogging here... pretty much... hahaha.. damn I'm hella bored with nothing to do.. even though I'm at work... and watching drew sleep... lol.. hella funny, I must add... dang 2 more days until we have a break... thank god.. sheesh, I can't stand going to school, but of course to all the people who are going to the field trip, I hate you all.. just kidding, I can't go, cause I'm afraid that I might miss to much work, yeah whatever... blah blah blah... hahah.. I'm gonna go... and stick something in andrew's nose.. I wonder if he can feel it!?!??

bwahahahaha... im in spanish class yeaaaah!! ohkay anyways... almost time for 3rd period to end... bye bye!! almost break!! oh man i want some wendy's right about now!! nuggets yeaaaah!!!

I'm still blogging here. I don't care what anybody says, lol. Ain't that right, Pearl?

Lol. But whatever. I'm going to be a biter and copy Geraldane and write a post concerning my future. Let's see:

I'm applying to eight colleges, make that ten.

UC Berkeley **
UC Davis *
UC San Diego **
UC Santa Cruz
San Francisco State
San Diego State
San Jose State
New York University / Columbia University
University of Toronto
University of the Pacific

Yeah, that's a lot. I know I'll get into that State colleges, so those are my back ups. And I probably will get inot UC Santa Cruz. And all the other ones are just . . . long shots. I don't think I'll get good enough grades for that.

But I want to become an anesthesist. Like, an RN of anesthegiology. I don't think I spelled that right. Great, I don't even know how to spell the major that I want to pursue correctly. DAMNIT! Haha, but anyway, yeah ... get my Bachelor's degree in Nursing, and then get my Masters and hopefully become a Nurse Practitioner, so I could prescribe myself my own drugs, and later get charged for malpractice.

Haha, just kidding. Um, yah, anyway, I don't know. It'll be weird going to college, since I won't have the comfort of High School to lean on. But, it's a part of life, right? And I guess we'll all have to experience it sooner or later. Some sooner than others, but eventually, yeah.

My GPA is at an all time low right now. It's a 3.78, or a 3.8 when rounded to two significant figures (Ms. Evans, lol.) But yeah, hopefully, I'll bring it up by the end of Junior year, if I can survive Mr. Woolard and Ms. Dunkin's class. Geez, those two teachers are fucking causing me stress beyong stress. Okay, this is getting long. Time to just end this.

Seeya later, people.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, ee I ee I oh!

Lmao.

MVEMJSUNP hahaha, right Geraldane?

So hmm...no one's really writing on this one anymore...I guess I'll add a long post about the future. What does the future hold in store for me? I think I have a good short-term plan. I want to get into UCLA...really badly. Not 'cause some stupid boy said it was a cool place...well, not JUST 'cause of that...but because they've got a really REALLY cool vibe goin on. I don't know! Now, it's either that or USC. Now, I've been obsessed with getting into USC since the 8th grade. I have no idea why. Maybe it's cause I LuUuUrved Jason Sehorn at the time. Haha, ok, anyway, they've got a TOP NOTCH communications department. Yes, I know, communications?! That's like...the easiest to major in. But it's what I want to do. I really have my heart set on working PR. You know, that's like, my dream job. I always talk about UCSB because it's a place to fall back on. Don't get me wrong...the school is a GREAT school, but I know I won't be there for the education. heh.

Yeah. I think everyone knows what I'm thinking of doing in the summer before college. I wanna hit the road...with a band...being a roadie. Do you know how cool that environment is? Where everyone's there because it's what they LOVE? Golly, I'd want to do that for the rest of my life. Meeting all the people I've met so far has been really cool. They're really open and carefree. They actually care about doing what they do. Talking to the people who work behind the scenes with them is awesome. I think that's why I want to go into public relations and be able to see that stuff all the time. I'm pretty sure I have some good training, dealing my crap right now. Sorry to bore everyone. I just felt like writing before I went to sleep.

well today was a typical sunday for meeh...juss another day....church and then a jam session..haha well we are currently praticing for jaymi pare's debut but i dont think we will be ready...im this close to forgeting bout the whole thing and juss forget it...well iono i got to tell the guys and most importantly tell jaymi...well thats basically what i did today...juss another typical day...oh yeah i didnt do this yesterday but ill do it today...HAPPPPYYY LATE BELATEDDDD 16th BIRTTTHHHHDDAAAAYYYYYYY ERREEEENNNNEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!hehe happy birthday ereene hope that you have more to come...